Twenty Years/ Still Loving

I will see Larry tomorrow.
 
It will be our early anniversary 'celebration.' It certainly is not how we would have envisioned this milestone moment in our lives. Emotions are on overload. It's hard to explain how it feels to be so blessed and yet so sad at the same time. Thinking about the days and years (and hours) of reflection, meditation and prayer over our situation it is clear that God is in control of everything. 

He has worked out every specific detail long before our lives became our what they are today.

I never would have believed that my life story would end up including a chapter where my house gets destroyed with tear gas, my husband gets sent away for 20 years because the one time in his life (arguably the most important time) he didn't compare and check and re-check (thoroughly), the qualifications of a service provider before hiring them. The time when his life literally depended on it.

The grace of God has made a way for us to have visits. I don't see how i could have survived otherwise. I know it seems a bit ungracious to want more but i do. I want my husband home with me.  

Thank you for your mercies Lord. Forgive that in spite of all the blessings of protection and provision I still come to you asking for more. But You are my Almighty Father in heaven , there is no better place to go.