Why is there suffering? Why can't I get a break? Why aren't people just nice to each other? Why would she do that? Why does he stay with her? Why doesn't anyone like me? Why would God allow that to happen? Why didn't He answer my prayers? Why? Why? Why?
I guess it is our insatiable need to know things that we cannot know, to comprehend that which is beyond our capacity to comprehend. It is this weakness that satan preys upon. He first used it against Eve and it worked. - But look where it's gotten us. The fall of humanity happened as a result of her pride. Eve wanted to eat of the tree of knowledge. And we, like Adam, follow along after those offering worldly 'wisdom.'
What they fail to understand (and many don't care to) is that we are spiritual beings. Spiritual warfare goes on around us all the time. We may laugh at the idea of an angel on one shoulder and the devil on the other, but it is not a laughing matter. Who do you allow to win in your personal spiritual battles?
I don't know the day or hour, but I know the difference when I declared to satan, 'You will lose! You cannot have my husband. You cannot have my son. You cannot have me. Jesus Christ has rescued us and He has defeated you, and it is in His name I claim victory.'
I threw down gauntlet and I was ...confident of victory. That didn't, however, prevent satan from taking on the challenge. He didn't slither away. He fought back with a vengeance. His goal was to 'take me out.' I was the one praying. I was the one with the faith. I was the one calling on the name of Jesus. With me out of the equation he would be free to continue his destructive work.
I ask the question too. Why? Why did God enable me to have the kind of faith that gave me the confidence to shake my fist in the face of satan? This faith is available to everyone but few embrace it. So why me? I know that I'm 'different' but I'm certainly not extraordinary.
Why did He choose me and Larry to demonstrate His love in such and extraordinary way?
If you wonder why I am still living- why (and how) I am still loving? The answer is quite simple - Jesus Christ. He died to save every one of us. He is still living. He is still loving - every single soul... and I choose to let Him live in me.
I may not fully understand why certain things had to happen the way they did. But I don't need to. I trust in God who is infinitely more wise and loving than I am. He knows the 'why'... and that is good enough for me.
I pray that our faith will continue to grow and will not waiver when faced with the next 'why?'.