Still I long to see the curves of Larry's face. There is hope now - not false, but expectant, hope. I WILL see him, but when? How can they not realize how important it is? When is patience no longer in order? How many weeks... months... years, will I be made to wait?
Sometimes I wonder if the wait will be long enough to break me. I wonder if that is the plan. It is in those moments that God speaks to my heart. I can feel His hands holding my face, His eyes staring into mine, "Look at me. What did I tell you?"
His Word tells me in Proverbs 3:5 (NLT)
5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart;
do not depend on your own understanding.
I am sure the disappointments are bound to keep coming. The challenges will not stop. Though satan has lost, he does not give up. Like an evil 'energized bunny' he will keep coming and coming and coming. He may pounce, or he may sneak up on us when I least expect it. I must remember to keep my guard up. I must never allow myself to just relax and believe that I will remain safely beyond his reach. That is where the danger lies.
I can remain safe, but it takes effort on my part. I must always keep my eyes on Jesus. I must daily place my life in his hands. I must daily remind myself that I was created for His glory. He is not just sitting back waiting for me to make my request de jour.
When facing relentless disappointments and difficulties it easy to become distracted - to take my eyes off of Jesus. The focus becomes the problem instead of the source of strength.
Those are the times I stop and envision my broken bleeding Savior dying on a cross - for me. His love for me is so great that he willing suffered that torture - for me. He cared that much then. He cares that much now. I can trust in Him and His plans for my life.
...Strengthened again, I can rest ...in Him.
Thank you Lord for Your strength for today. Thank you for giving me the faith to trust, and hope... and rest.