It has been quite a while since I have written. My heart has not been silent. I confess, however, that it has been disappointed one time too many. Though I searched for words and inspiring messages, there were none to be found. I was empty after the injustice we experienced from 11th District last year. That disappointment was bad enough. The follow-up was the decline of the Supreme Court to hear the case. Perhaps worst of all was the knowledge that the same appellate court overturned another appellee's sentence in which he cited the case we presented to the court.
I will not lie. It is not easy to read in black and white the injustice, to experience disappointment, and disillusionment in our judicial system. It is difficult. Remaining hopeful, not losing faith that justice will prevail - it is excruciatingly painful ... and confusing.
It is now a nearly decade-long assault on our family. There have been mountains of gratitude and valleys of anger and despair. Despite the soul-numbing disappointments, the blessings were apparent throughout the challenges. To preserve the faith that has brought me this far, I needed to immerse my soul in the word until I allowed the Holy Spirit to revive me.
I refused to allow this far-too-long and unnecessary journey to rob me of my faith and can only pray that Larry never loses the faith he is embracing. But I desperately needed God's guidance and strength.
Many are the plans in a person's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails.
Proverbs 19:21 is the lesson God is teaching me (among others) at this time.
All our plans, my legal research, and the legitimate arguments submitted in our appeals may indeed be sensible human plans. Our "plan" for Larry's sentence to be lawfully corrected quickly may not be the plan that will achieve the Lord's purpose.
And it is His purpose that prevails.
God may or may not choose to reveal His purpose, His manor in achieving it, or how long it will take. He does promise that His plans are always for our good and that we can trust Him.
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
For now, I believe He wants me to write for Him again. He has reignited my desire to do so and trust He will use the words He gives me for His purpose and glory.
The judicial system has failed me and is failing others like me. Each post will reveal a different instance of our failing system, of violations of law, and violations liberties. If you or a loved one has experienced similar injustice, or if, unlike me, your local local judicial system has served you well, feel free to share your comments.