As I 'patiently' wait on the Lord for His timing, how can the years and the time fly by so quickly yet at the same time find myself in exactly the same place I was years before?
In my heart, I understand His ways are greater and higher. Every day I recite to myself, "For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11 I get it, I really do.
- At least I want to believe I do.
I'm still on my journey of faith. My library of prayer journals assures me that I have made my heart's desires known to my Father in heaven. Devotions every morning, My Utmost..., Living Every Day..., One Year Bible Devotional, and now Jesus Calling. He's still calling. I'm still listening - still persevering in my faith.
My writing is therapeutic. But it takes time and energy. It's difficult to believe that it has been almost eight months since my last 'journey entry.' Much has happened in those many months. Life has been chaotic, unsettled, tiresome, and to be honest - discouraging. Despite my intentions to write, I just couldn't find the energy. I wanted to continue sharing my journey. But I chose my devotions over my writing.
My faith is essential. It is essential that I stay connected with God. Though someone may stumble on to my Utmost Journey blog one day, and be encouraged, my time with God is life-giving water. Without it, I couldn't face the trials of this life with strength. He is my strength.
If there is anyone out there, who read this blog and thought I had retreated from the journey. I have not. It's that time flew by as I found myself standing still, unable to move, clinging to God so as not to stumble into a pit of despair.
A few months ago I visited a different church because I would not be able to attend home church services. As a visitor gift, I received a copy of Jesus Calling.
I hadn't planned on visiting that church. I never felt led to purchase a copy of this devotional for myself. God, however, knew it would be a source of encouragement to me in a time of great need. Just the right human words and just the right time. Just the right scriptures to assure me God still loves me. He still cares when I hurt, and that He is still the One in control.
I'm still on this journey of faith. I'm just traveling with different reading material at the moment. I'm Still Listening as Jesus is calling.
Isaiah 41:10 | Zephaniah 3:17 | Psalm 34:19
Lord, today and every day, help us to call on you to be our strength and our guide.
Melinda started her fifth year of her devotions reading Oswald Chamber's My Utmost for His Highest. In 2015 she has made the commitment to share what this year's journey. Taking a detour, she began living Every Day With Jesus