There is no such thing as a private life - "a world within the world" - for a man or a woman who is brought into fellowship with Jesus Christ's sufferings. God breaks up the private life of his saint... My Utmost for His Highest ~Oswald Chambers
Today's reading is the uncomfortable truth regarding my life. Once described as a very private person (a truth manipulated to fit an incorrect assumption regarding my life), I must face the fact that God didn't want my life to remain isolated. My faith in Jesus Christ and what he has done in my life - as well as in the life of my husband, my son, and others in my life, is not meant to remain "private."
When I married my husband, God joined us in Holy matrimony. We became one in the eyes of the Lord. When God sanctified me, I felt a desperation for my husband's soul that I had never felt before. God heard my prayers for him and he knew the sincerity with which I prayed. And He proved Himself faithful. God does what God needs to do to accomplish His will. My prayers for Larry's salvation was in line with His will - that is that none are lost.
My life changed in an instant. Our family's future was permanently altered and my heart broken. My privacy was misinterpreted. Those believed they were "helping" me, made my pain so much greater. I now know I must forfeit that privacy. God calls me to sacrifice it for the sake of the truth about my husband and our life together, and for the sake of my own faith - and his. It is for the sake of the Gospel that it must be done. So that others may know freedom in of Jesus Christ. - Because my life is no longer my own.
If through a broken heart God can bring His purposes to pass in the world, thank Him for breaking your heart. My Utmost... ~Oswald Chambers
I do thank You Lord for breaking my heart, and for Your mercies in the pain... May I soon be singing Your praises for restoration? Your will be done.